today min and i chatted bout the word "friend" and wad defines it. and i found out tt maybe my expectations are too high~ but to me~ friends is not jus someone whom u talked to or went out b4. but is someone whom u REALI talked to and went out with, and feel that there is some connection. maybe like wad our GEMS teacher said.. the more we expect, e more disappointed we are. so dun expect! cos it will nomally leave us with disappointment. e world will not change cos of ur own expectations. pp cannot read ur mind~ o they do not reali know wad u are thinking. of cos with some understanding we can guess each other's thoughts. but seriously, how accurate are we?
kiss of the wind.. 12:38 AM
Monday, June 2Y
how impt are frens? they are jus as impt as family~ we need frens to survive and stay happY! i emphasise again~ we NEED them!!
from wad i feel now is tt... i can haf no bf, but i MUST haf frens. of cos bf makes my life happier after sch cos there is this someone who will always be there and listen wad i haf to say. not tt frens dun do those~ but i jus haven find 1 tt is reali my ZHI XIN PENG YOU. u know~ the one tt u can feel tt is tuly listening to all u say and will not be distracted by others. maybe, my expectations are too high. perhaps it is my memories of HER tt stopped me from progressing. perhaps it is my personality that kept pp out of my life.
i feel kind of complete now is cos i dun ask for too much. if one expects alot, the more disappointed one will be. maybe cos we haf different likes and hobbies, maybe we aren't very close heart-to-heart. but im jus contented to feel the presence of those who are still in my life. Losing one is hard enough - i do not wan to lose more.
many pp start to neglect their frens when they are attached. and in turn, their frens oso neglect them too. and when they realise, everything is too late - the gap is too big. as i always like to say, things can nv be the same again. u broke ur arm and it healed, but it will nv be as gd as b4. yes, i do reflect on my relationship with others, but i nv take action. last time i do, but it failed and scarred me badly. hui aH~ it's time to gor wup and take initiative! things wun change jus because u THINK =/
kiss of the wind.. 9:47 AM
bleahx! my computer is DOWN! it's sad~ cos it made me sad )= so unlucky tt my com is down during the HOLS!! no computer... no entertainment... cant do project!
